Today, I logged onto my Tumblr account, and I saw that my queue was close to empty. As I realized that I was going to have to select the photos that fit the tight guidelines I have for my theme, I experienced something I haven’t experienced before with Tumblr: a sense of dread.
I’m someone who tends to process things internally. I’ve found that if I’m having difficulty with that process, writing helps a lot. My previous post was the result of trying to work through the different feelings that were making me hesitant to touch my Tumblr account. Another way that I tend to process things is by partaking in one of my favorite hobbies: napping.
I posted my thoughts & took a really nice, long nap. I’m not going to lie. It felt good. :) However, I remembered the reason for my nap and felt embarrassed about the post I had left on Tumblr. It seemed like a desperate ploy for attention, so I needed to log into the account & delete the post before too many people had seen it. Embarrassment turned into a unique combination of mortification & delight. :)
Apparently, some of you saw the post and replied in a lovely way. Also, it seems enchantedengland (one of my favorite blogs on Tumblr) was quite the busy little elf in getting the word to many of you. =D Thank you so much for your wonderful messages and for taking the time to look at my blog & follow if you liked it.
I took a moment to stop and think. Probably not the best idea I’ve had…
Why do I have this blog? The pictures are beautiful, but really, they are mostly pictures I share that other people have uploaded. So, not only am I not the photographer, I’m not even the guy who found the photo in the first place. When I do take the time to link pics, they mostly go unnoticed. The times I feel daring enough to post one of my own, I see that my photos pale in comparison.
I’ve received some positive feedback from folks on Twitter & Facebook about the things I share on Tumblr, and I’m thankful for that. I truly am. However, it’s gotten to the point where my frustration with my own efforts in photography is starting to impact my enjoyment of photography, in general. I’ve done my best to stick to the landscape theme, but to what purpose? Initially, it was a window to the world for me & a way to experience beauty. However, the images are starting to blur together. The trees, mist, stars, mountains, lakes, flowers & everything are starting to look the same, and they are starting to lose their vibrancy. I know the beauty is there. I just am starting to think that my blog has lost that spark if it ever had one to begin with. Also, the fact that most of what I post is actually a repost from someone else’s blog shows that what I’m trying to do is really already being done. Not only that, it’s being done better.
I’m at a point where I honestly don’t know the right way to continue. What is a good frequency for sharing blog posts that are almost all photos? Should there be more than just photos? Should the theme of the blog start to have a wider spectrum? Should I post more text & interactive stuff?
Should I just be thankful I had a good run & bag it? Maybe I could focus on Google+ or something like that.
I seriously want to hear from you. What do you think?