I want to cry out for help, but who wants to hear it? I want to beg for reassurance. But even if it comes, will I believe it? I want to ask people if they love me, if they are mad at me, if I’m a burden…but I know questions like these only push people away. I want to say just how much I hurt, but it would upset the few who care & be ignored by the rest. I want to stop the pain in my head, heart & soul, but it grows. I want to cut, but I can’t try to hide the scars or tell little lies to explain them away. I want to end it, but I know that it would leave a legacy of pain for those who love me.
Sorry my posts have not been prolific of late. So burnt out on Social Media. I think it’s mostly the hype, propaganda & rhetoric surrounding the pending election in November. Anyways, rather than give a half-hearted effort to maintain the blog, I’m just going to take a break. I will be back, recharged, and ready to share. (Please don’t unfollow me… just think of it as me not cluttering your dash for a bit.)